I haven’t seen my Grandpa in the Phase for a while and I miss him dearly, so I decided to see him today.
I went to bed with this item being number one on my action plan list and reminded myself about conscious awakenings – waking up with an idea of getting into the Phase right away. But even though I managed to wake up once with the intention and tried to get into the Phase, by 8am I was fully awake without any experiences.
Determined to get into the Phase no matter what, I laid back down, stopped moving and started to breathe with my sleepy breath while attempting to see the images with my eyes closed. This resulted into me eventually getting back to sleep.
I am dreaming that me and Sophia are driving in my home town and I want to show her the place where I was born and lived for the first 10 years of my life. We try to drive behind the building but the entrance is blocked. I talk to a police officer and he tells me that the car entrance is walled because of the gang violence. We leave the car and walk through another entrance.
We pass through the backyard and see lots of black cats there. Through the porch, we get into the main yard. I stand in its centre, in front of our old balcony, get all emotional, and start crying saying that I want to go back into my childhood and I want to be back with my grandparents. Suddenly I ask myself a question, “Am I dreaming?”, answer yes, and from that moment, the Phase begins.
In that second, all emotions are gone and I follow my action plan. I start shouting, “Grandpa, Grandpa!” expecting him to show up on the balcony. But he doesn’t. I am still very determined to see him and keep shouting looking all around for him. After a while, he appears walking up alone cobblestone road. He wears a black hat and a raincoat – the usual outfit I see him in the Phase. I rush to him and hug him. I ask how he and Grandma are doing. He smiles (which is rare, he usually is sad and I interpret it as him not approving me to be in the Phase). He hugs me and says, “Do not worry, kiddo. The Universe is treating us well.”
I managed to get into the Phase twice more that morning, did some other items from my list and even had time for a free play but this was the most profound experience of all.