The Phase experience is so unique and valuable because in the Phase we can realize many things: see people we miss, visit different places, do things we can’t usually do, and feel something which can never be felt in the physical world. Even though it is a good idea to have a list of things to do in the Phase, not everything always goes as planned and sometimes it is hard to imagine a feeling which one has never experienced in the “real” life.
I never fly in my regular dreams, so I use the Phase to experience the feeling of soaring on air. I like trying to feel how it is to be different kinds of animals. But this is something I preprogram. Yesterday in the Phase, I experienced a feeling I could never have imagined or experienced anywhere else. I was in the Phase flying over the mountains. There were some people there walking along the grassy mountain meadow. I lowered and was going to fly near them when suddenly I get this feeling as if I am spreading all over and I am everywhere at the same time. I was in every cell of those people, I was in every blade of grass of that meadow; I was filling all the air and all this is happening at the same time. It was a feeling of ultimate joy: feeling everything simultaneously, penetrating everywhere, being inside all the world at the same time being the entire world… I experienced this a little bit before during one of my meditations but that was more like being a fog and spreading down the corridor. This one was different in a sense of filling everything and feeling everything. And the overwhelming joy. Is this what we really are? Is this how we are really supposed to feel this world?
Interestingly, my most exciting experiences occur when I am stressed or sleep-deprived. I wonder if it is related to those onsets of creativity we can have when depressed or drunk?